I'm A Mailbox.

asmilefell @ 2007-08-01T03:50:00

2007-08-01T10:50:51Z

Thank you, Rudy Guliani, for all you did after 9/11 and for your great job as an SNL host.

Now please, stop talking.

asmilefell @ 2007-06-12T22:36:00

2007-06-13T05:39:21Z

Spring Awakening Lyrics

All That's Known Lyrics

[Boys chanting and Repeating]
. . . litora, multum ille et terris iactatus et alto
vi superum, saevae memorem Iunonis ob iram,
multa quoque et bello passus, dum conderet urbem . . .
arma virumque cano, Troiae qui primus ab oris
Italiam fato profugus Laviniaque venit . . .

[Melchior]
All that's known,
In History, in Science,
Overthrown
At school, at home, by blind men.

You doubt them,
And soon they bark and hound you-
Till everything you say is just another bad about you.

All they say
Is "Trust in What Is Writen."
Wars are made.
And somehow that is wisdom.

Thought is suspect,
And money is their idol,
And nothing is okay unless it's scripted in their Bible.

But I know
There's so much more to find-
just in lookin through myself, and not at them.

Still, I know
To trust my own true mind,
And to say: there's a way through this...

On I go,
To wonder and to learning-
name the stars and know their dark returning.

I'm calling,
To know the world's true yearning-
The hunger that a child feels for everything they're shown.

You watch me-
Just watch me-
I'm calling,
And one day all will know.

You watch me-
Just watch me-
I'm calling,I'm calling
And one day all will know.

asmilefell @ 2007-05-14T01:03:00

2007-05-14T08:05:12Z

LOL I need a ride to Sasquatch. I've only got tickets for Saturday, but I got Thursday-Sunday off (my b-day is that Thurs so I'm doing dinner with some folks in the Grove).

anyone going for just Saturday that I can hitch a ride with? I can pay gas money and I can get myself to wherever you guys are leaving from...

lol this is a livejournal plea for transportation. How quaint!

asmilefell @ 2007-04-17T23:31:00

2007-04-18T06:43:43Z

The Virginia Tech tragedy.

It's just mind-blowing. I have friends here from Virginia.

My heart goes out to everyone involved.

I can't even imagine...

asmilefell @ 2007-04-04T02:21:00

2007-04-04T09:23:06Z

there's so much I want to achieve in life that sometimes I feel like being in college is actually detrimental to my goals.

I'm sick of learning. I am ready to experience.

Courtesy of Andrea!

2007-03-30T09:44:54Z

Leave your name and
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you CAN IF YOU HAVE THE DESIRE TO post this on your journal.

p.s. whoever is outside shouting at 2:45 in the morning can SHUT THE FUCK UP, thank you very much.

Hmm.

2007-03-12T12:03:51Z

I keep thinking of life like one of those "Choose your own adventure!" books. You know, the end of each chapter they give you choices and whichever one you choose takes you to a different part of the book?

Well I always cheated on those books, haha! I'd choose one, but after reading the book entirely that way, I would go back and re-read it according to another choice, etc. Needless to say it took me for-freakin-ever to finish one of those books.

Anyways, I keep thinking of life like that. I worry that maybe somewhere along the way there was an amazing, life changing choice and I didn't make it. I want to be able to go back and try everything that has ever been offered to me and experience all the things I was too scared or nervous to.

Now this isn't a depressing thought to me at all, it just makes me kind of wistful. I feel like I may very well have passed up some amazing opportunities. But in a way it's a good thing. It has made me that much more willing to delve into the unknown now. I don't want to live my whole life feeling like I want to turn the pages back. I'm making my life right now in a way that I don't even care what the other pages held, I'm living an amazing life through the pages I did choose.

Just thought I'd share.

<3

asmilefell @ 2007-02-16T12:57:00

2007-02-16T20:57:48Z

sorry guys...this is long

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others.
Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.
You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.
A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

You Are 60% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

You Failed 8th Grade Geography

Sorry, you only got 1/10 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Geography?

durrr....just ask Hannah. I SUCK at geography, haha!

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

What's Your Personality Type?

lol I am authority!!!

You Passed 8th Grade Science

Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Science?

You Should Travel to India

You're a passionate, gusty traveler - and India's gritty urban centers won't scare you away.
Maybe you'll take in the Taj Mahal, eat the best curry of your life, or attend a huge street festival.

What Asian Country Should You Visit?

hmmmm...lol

You Date Like a Man

According to studies on dating, you date like a man.
You date casually and frequently, getting serious with select people over time.

Physical attraction and chemistry is very important to you.
And if there's nothing more than a physical connection, that's okay with you (at least for a while).

You are definitely looking for love, but you are in no rush to find it.
You figure love will eventually come your way, and you're not going to live like a monk while you're waiting!

Do You Date Like a Man or a Woman?

You Belong in 1964

If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

Wha

asmilefell @ 2007-02-06T02:33:00

2007-02-06T10:37:34Z

I'm really excited about the Vagina Monologues. I seriously leave every rehearsal feeling empowered and wanting to listen to Ani DiFranco. Plus the cast is awesome and we all get along really well, which is a nice change!

Might be going to Belize this summer...it's either that, and then Zambia my senior year, or no Belize, Zambia NEXT year, and Vietnam my senior year.

Either way, pretty kickass. And Hannah got accepted to her dream school! Which is AWESOME! And my friend Katie got married Saturday, and she looked beautiful and Kevin was my date, and we scoped out potential boys for each other. It was amazing.

Larry called me to figure out which Austyn I was (lol!) and a bunch of the seattle kids/ people from home might actually be coming out for the VMs!!! Renee said she wants to come, Naomi facebooked an "Attending" thingamajig on the event, and Mandy said she'd come if she could find a ride. Hannah will *hopefully* have funds/time to come, the hermana and the madre are coming...it'll be pretty sweet! I'm hoping Sham will come to, which would kickass!

umm...that's it! this semester is a lot less stressful and a lot more fun than last semester and I think the year is going to end in an upswing! hurrah!

<3

asmilefell @ 2006-12-30T02:49:00

2006-12-30T09:49:03Z

K all I am off. Sorry if I didn't get to see you (Larry!!! :((((
I'll try to post from India, but I don't know if I can remember this password...so facebook/myspace/e-mail me!

mcph5754@pacificu.edu

I LOVE YOU ALL! (and Sage, hope things in Cali get better, Renee, hope things in Seattle improve!!!)

<3, Austyn

India, Here I Come!

2006-12-27T02:18:56Z

FYI:

I leave for Portland on December 30th, and I leave for India on the 31st! That's right, India! I'll be coming back to Forest Grove around January 23 or 24.

So yeah, I'll have internet there, so feel free to e-mail me or myspace me or facebook me!

mcph4743@pacificu.edu

<3

asmilefell @ 2006-08-14T22:28:00

2006-08-15T05:29:13Z

Too much to do.

:(

I've gotta buck up and keep trucking!

asmilefell @ 2006-07-23T21:54:00

2006-07-24T04:55:18Z

I have a baby quail named Mork!!!

and I love him very much.

asmilefell @ 2006-07-16T21:02:00

2006-07-17T04:04:32Z

leilas a teapot: y'know.. if I'm in the middle of cooking dinner I don't want to have to leave my caserole to burn to knock a bitch out

^on having a hot husband and having be not tooo hot, because then she'd have to slap a bitch.

convo con mi hermana:

caiterlin09: hows life with you
Denada24: being a robot is going well for me, actually
Denada24: haha
caiterlin09: oh good
caiterlin09: we need more robots in the world
Denada24: it's true
Denada24: and as soon as I figure out robot sex, there will be millions more
Denada24: robots are extremely fertile, dontcha know
caiterlin09: i did know that
Denada24: you took the robot reproduction online courses too???
Denada24: I never knew!
caiterlin09: yeah
caiterlin09: I'm actually certified to perform robot marriages in 7 countries
caiterlin09: and I can deliver robot babies in 5 of those
Denada24: oh wow...
Denada24: do you speak binary too???
Denada24: because I have a BA in binary speaking alone.
caiterlin09: yeah, fluently
Denada24: wow, I'm impressed!
caiterlin09: yeah, you should be
Denada24: my robot heart thanks you
caiterlin09: thats what makes it all worthwhile

ahh, it's times like these that I miss those girls a lot!

asmilefell @ 2006-07-06T00:55:00

2006-07-06T07:56:55Z

I cannot wait for Hood River and Seattle!

It will be a very nice vacation from the TC, and I'm glad to be seeing steph soon because I know she's having a hard week, so it will be just SWELL to see her!!!

anyways, I'm gone Friday-Sunday, so I'll see you all Sunday night, if not before Friday...if that made sense, haha!

asmilefell @ 2006-07-05T02:39:00

2006-07-05T09:41:04Z

I had a great talk with Sham tonight, about just a ton of stuff.

I'm so glad that after all these years, after everything we've gone through seperately and together, that he's still here.

Now, if he didn't play WoW, he'd be my hero, haha!!

asmilefell @ 2006-07-01T13:02:00

2006-07-01T20:05:10Z

I don't want to go back to school August 1st...that is SO soon! I missed my friends here at home sooooooo much when I was gone, and every time I hang out with them I begin to not want to leave. They are so amazing I don't think they even know...

This summer I'm trying to let them all know how much I appreciate them, either verbally, or through my actions. I try to tell someone when I appreciate something they've done, or if I respect what they're doing with their life. I hope that if I haven't been obvious with my praise, that they understand that they FUCKING RULE! and I would do anything for them.

Yay for friends!!!

asmilefell @ 2006-06-27T01:53:00

2006-06-27T08:53:51Z

Denada24: dude, I'd do Wolverine...but I think it'd be painful.
Denada24: I'm not sure why I typed that to you
Denada24: but it was on my mind, lol
uNF Dewlicious: >_<
uNF Dewlicious: you could make it painful for him and he'd just regenerate
uNF Dewlicious: he'd be the ultimate masochist

gotta love Mr. O

asmilefell @ 2006-06-27T01:45:00

2006-06-27T08:46:37Z

Higgy: Can I masturbate to pictures of myself?
Austyn:...sure?
Higgy: Does masturbating to my own picture make me gay, or just really really vain?

I laughed for like five minutes straight!

asmilefell @ 2006-06-24T01:21:00

2006-06-24T08:22:38Z

fun last couple of days-

hung out with whitney and steve, then my sister, then ben. Next day, hung out with a TON of people, played video games, ate ramen, much fun.

And then about five minutes ago I caught the stovetop on fire.

:/

I'm officially never making food here again.

asmilefell @ 2006-06-20T14:47:00

2006-06-20T21:52:46Z

I've acquired this strange habit of waking up (normally later than I should) and sitting online for a couple of hours researching one thing from the news that I found interesting.

My most recent ones were the prison riots in Brazil upon the moving of gang leaders from one prison to another one. Friends and family visiting the prisoners when they began rioting and holding guards hostage, remained in the prison as a show of support for their loved ones jailed inside.

How interesting...

After that I looked up the Aryan Brotherhood. This gang began in the jails of California in the 1950's. They were originally the Blue Bird Gang, if I remember correctly. I find it most interesting that this gang, designed to protect its members from the black and mexican prison gangs, actually has an alliance with the Mexican Mafia. The alliance is so strong that if a member of the Aryan Brotherhood has a problem with a Mexican prisoner and needs him to be killed, the Mexican Mafia will do the killing so it isn't tried as a hate crime. And vice versa.

Anyways, I like researching these things because then I have knowledge of areas I might never have even heard of before. Haha, I just realized I always research murderers/prison stuff (I did Son of Sam last week) but I guess those are often times the most interesting parts of the news, hence their prevelance in newspapers and what not.

asmilefell @ 2006-06-01T13:30:00

2006-06-01T20:35:37Z

So two religions that I love very dearly, and one that I enjoy as well.

The first: Pastafariansim. RAmen!

The Commandments

1. I'd Really Rather You Didn't Act Like a Sanctimonious Holier Than Thou Ass When Describing My Noodly Goodness. If Some People Don't Believe In Me, That's Okay. Really, I'm Not That Vain. Besides, This Isn't About Them So Don't Change The Subject.
2. I'd Really Rather You Didn't Use My Existence As A Means To Oppress, Subjugate, Punish, Eviscerate, And/Or, You Know, Be Mean To Others. I Don't Require Sacrifices And Purity Is For Drinking Water, Not People.
3. I'd Really Rather You Didn't Judge People For The Way They Look, Or How They Dress, Or The Way They Talk, Or, Well, Just Play Nice, Okay? Oh, And Get This In Your Thick Heads: Woman = Person. Man = Person. Samey - Samey. One Is Not Better Than The Other, Unless We're Talking About Fashion And I'm Sorry, But I Gave That To Women And Some Guys Who Know The Difference Between Teal and Fuchsia.
4. I'd Really Rather You Didn't Indulge In Conduct That Offends Yourself, Or Your Willing, Consenting Partner Of Legal Age AND Mental Maturity. As For Anyone Who Might Object, I Think The Expression Is Go F*** Yourself, Unless They Find That Offensive In Which Case They Can Turn Off the TV For Once And Go For A Walk For A Change.
5. I'd Really Rather You Didn't Challenge The Bigoted, Misogynist, Hateful Ideas Of Others On An Empty Stomach. Eat, Then Go After The B******
6. I'd Really Rather You Didn't Build Multimillion-Dollar Churches/Temples/Mosques/Shrines To My Noodly Goodness When The Money Could Be Better Spent (Take Your Pick):
1. Ending Poverty
2. Curing Diseases
3. Living In Peace, Loving With Passion, And Lowering The Cost Of Cable
I Might be a Complex-Carbohydrate Omniscient Being, But I Enjoy The Simple Things In Life. I Ought To Know. I AM the Creator.
7. I'd Really Rather You Didn't Go Around Telling People I Talk To You. You're Not That Interesting. Get Over Yourself. And I Told You To Love Your Fellow Man, Can't You Take A Hint?
8. I'd Really Rather You Didn't Do Unto Others As You Would Have Them Do Unto You If You Are Into, Um, Stuff That Uses A Lot of Leather/Lubricant/Las Vegas. If the Other Person Is Into It, However (Pursuant To #4), Then Have At It, Take Pictures, And For The Love Of Mike, Wear a CONDOM! Honestly, It's A Piece of Rubber. If I Didn't Want It To Feel Good When You Did It I Would Have Added Spikes, Or Something.

These commandments were given by the Flying Spaghetti Monster to Mosey the Pirate while he was on Mt. Salsa waiting for a pirate ship. There were ten, but he dropped two on his way down from the mountain, leaving only 8.

For more info: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flying_Spaghetti_Monster Or go find the book "Gospel of the Flying Spaghetti Monster" available online or in bookstores.

Also, I want to become an ordained minister of the Church of the SubGenius.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Church_of_the_SubGenius

I love their cross...very clever! And I get three times my money back if I don't receive eternal salvation!

Finally, you have to at least respect the Invisible Pink Unicorn. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Invisible_Pink_Unicorn

I love wikipedia.

Enjoy, and begin starting your own religions!!!

asmilefell @ 2006-05-11T03:55:00

2006-05-11T10:56:53Z

www.mydeathspace.com

Articles and obituaries of MySpace users who have died, all with the MySpace pages linked.

It's morbidly fascinating...my friend is using it in a report she's doing...I don't know how I feel about it, but I thought I would post about it...

asmilefell @ 2006-04-20T22:29:00

2006-04-21T05:30:08Z

My SOBE cap says "Jetta & A Ponytail"

That about sums up life right now.

hmmm....

2006-04-06T16:08:19Z

My roommate Kelsey just informed me that she is dropping out of school and will be packed up and gone on Monday.

This makes the list of people who have dropped out (in mostly chronological order):

Samantha
Chelsea
Tyler
Paula
Jake
Ashley
Conner
Leila
Emilie
Ted
Jacob
Kelsey

hmmm... interesting.

needless to say, I'm thinking of transferring to a school down in San Francisco my junior year, so I will keep you posted.

<3